How Meditation Gave Me A Meaning

It was more than three years ago that I discovered meditation. I still remember the doubt in my mind as I sat down to meditate for the first time: why am I doing this? I could be doing all those hundreds of things on my “to do” list. But I am just sitting here, in the middle of the room, with my eyes closed, doing nothing. The only thing that motivated me back then was the Peace Revolution Fellowship in Thailand that I would attend after completing 42 days of self-development program. So I did it. After coming back from the Fellowship, it turned out to be the most life-changing experience ever – now I wouldn’t skip a day without meditation.

Paradise Island

Imagine yourself on a beautiful paradise island. You are watching the sunrise while doing yoga, eating delicious Thai food, meditating four times a day with around 30 people from all over the world, interacting with Teaching Monks and learning from their wisdom, doing different activities throughout the day that help you be mindful and see goodness in others and yourself, start noticing your habits and realize how lucky you are to be alive. You are not allowed to use electronic devices and internet, but you don’t need them, and it makes your mind feel fresh and free. You follow the discipline and wake up at 5 am for the early morning meditation, and you find it exciting and doable.

We don’t usually have these experiences in our daily life, do we? We are busy with our work, studies, personal life; we often think that we need to achieve more, earn more and possess more to be happy. But is that true? Can external things make us happy? For how long? The Fellowship in Thailand was about leaving all the desire, greed and ego behind. In fact, it was not about learning something new. The designed program, the discipline, the opportunity to be disconnected from all the worries and problems back home was all about returning to oneself: pure, happy and free.

Lost in India

Before the Fellowship, it was already some time that I felt lost in life. Despite having a good education with a great background in journalism and abundant project experience from all over the world, I felt that there was something more than that. I certainly knew that my life was not about going to an office and doing a job that I didn’t actually like or following the patterns of society and starting a family at a certain age. Therefore, having finished all my assignments in Europe, I went to India, the country that I loved and where I had worked as an English teacher before. I wanted India to somehow show me the direction, perhaps give a job that I would enjoy, find a place where I would stay and solve my problems. I was disappointed to find out that nothing was falling in my hands as I had expected. I struggled to find a place where to stay (moving from one place to another almost every day), my money was running out, no jobs came to me just like that, and my knee started to pain reminding me of an old injury that I had not fully fixed back home. With a desire to become a published writer, I realized that this would not bring me any income leading me into more uncertainty and worries about my future, about what I wanted to do in my life. When looking back at those days, I am grateful that it was exactly this moment that I joined the Peace Revolution Fellowship in Thailand and started a journey to my true self.

Finding oneself

One may wonder: why is it necessary to find ourselves? What is there to discover, when we already have a family, job, personal life, hobbies that we enjoy. At some extent we know who we are. But is it our true self? Do the labels that we wear define us? Are they permanent? We never know when we are going to lose our job, end our relationship, change our status in society or on the contrary – get a new job, start a new relationship or move to another country; we want it or not, everything in this world is changing, and nothing is forever. This is why the external factors that happen to us, the roles that we play and the labels that we wear, even the thoughts that we have, – they do not define who we truly are. Life keeps on changing all the time, so the quest for the true self and for more purity is never-ending. This is why meditation for me is this amazing tool that helps to stay aware, that allows to stop and observe, that connects me to my personal space, my inner salvage where to return and where the truth lies. Once this happens and I have meditated, it is easier then to stay mindful about every passing situation and make sure that I act in the best possible way at each given moment of my life.

Sharing with others

It doesn’t mean that after the Fellowship, my problems got solved. I would still have my busy “to do” list, and I would still sometimes feel lost searching for answers. What has changed is the way I look at life and the way I do those things on my “to do” list. With meditation, I give more meaning to everything I do, I let go things that I cannot change and I approach problems with a positive, solution-oriented attitude. And though it is not always easy to remember it amidst daily responsibilities and busy routine, I know that at the end of the day there is something to return to, something that matters the most before everything else shall happen – meditation and my inner peace. 

After completing the Fellowship in Thailand, I joined the Peace Revolution project as a Peace Coach and later became a meditation and mindfulness trainer (Peace Architect). Now as I sit down to meditate, I feel a totally different motivation. I want to take care of my mind. Moreover, meditation has become my mission: I want to share it with everyone wherever I go.

Peace Revolution Fellowship 13 participants on the deck before boarding a boat to the Mooktawan island.

Discover Yourself in Federated States of Micronesia

Who am I? How often have you been asking this question to yourself? And what answers have you gained? All of us play different roles in society, we fulfil different tasks and manage our daily responsibilities, but do these external factors define who we are? Join the third Pacific Self-Discovery Camp that will take place in Federated States of Micronesia from 20th to 24th of November 2017, and give yourself an opportunity to learn the tools for self-discovery.

 

Self-discovery is one of the most important steps for us to realize our full potential and know how to live successful and happy life. Hence, the Pacific Self-Discovery Camp will be organized for the third time bringing together a group of young people from the Pacific countries of the Micronesia Region who are interested in learning and exploring self-development as a primary means to discover their own true self making this world a better place to live in.

The Camp will consist of workshops and lectures about youth empowerment,
work-life balance, conflict prevention & resolution, peace promotion, relationships, stress management, and mindfulness. The camp will also bridge the gap between inner peace and social empowerment leading to transformational and peaceful activism.

In order to apply, candidates must be residents and/or nationals of one of these countries or islands: Federated States of Micronesia, Guam, Marshall Islands, Nauru, New Caledonia, Northern Mariana Islands and Palau. They must be between 20-32 years of age and complete at least 14 days of the online self-development program by 29th September 2017.

The Camp in Federated States of Micronesia includes a full or a partial sponsoring of airfare from your home country to FSM, free accommodation and food. There is no retreat fee.

Please see more information about the application procedure here.

Unexpected and Remarkable Discovery On the Journey to Peace

I remember the day when I have heard about Peace Revolution. It was in one of the peace camps where my friend told me about it. It was such an exciting moment as I have found the space where I could combine two big parts of my life – social and inner development. Whenever I started my journey in Peace Revolution I had a feeling of being in the right place as here I have found the work that I used to do for myself. For years I have volunteered and worked in international peace building organization and used to meditate for inner and spiritual development. And here… I have found both of them together and interconnected. Continue reading “Unexpected and Remarkable Discovery On the Journey to Peace”

“Out of this world” into my life.

In the early 90’s, when I was a kid, there was a TV show called “Out of this world”. It was a young teenager named Evie who finds out that her father is from a different planet and because of that she has superpowers. Well, actually, just one. An amazing one! Evie is able to stop time. She touches the tips of her index fingers and everything around her freezes. She could then ignore her mom’s scolding, get some extra time to check her history book before answering her teacher or even give herself an extra minute gazing at her crush passing by in the hall. Continue reading ““Out of this world” into my life.”